alina2re

Dreams are so beautifully fantastic!...It's almost like when you sleep, you (your brain) opens up a portal to another dimension and you see the life in that beautiful parallel universe where everything you ever thought was fantasy, actually exists!....you don't want to leave that reality!......but then some force of nature pulls you back and you(your soul) falls back to the ground of the universe in which you really belong...the portal is shut of now and you can't go back and you look around your reality and wonder???
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That force of nature is, sadly, your own mother, shouting "Wake up, alina, wake up!!....It's almost noon!"..(lol XD)..And you go like, out of breath, and like: "oh my god, omg! wtf, ..." and then you bang your head against your pillow, and moan!.."...you wipe your eyes, you look around, the sun is up, and you put your hands between the sun and you, like your a vampire and you haven't seen the light in a million years and it's making your eyes burn!...."Aaahhh!".....(Lmao! XD)



(P.S. this wasn't meant to be a Journal, i posted it first on Google+ ...and then I felt like posting a journal here.......Would've expanded it with my real feelings and thoughts about dreams with depth, but I'm just feeling lazy so wth, I just copied and paste it!....heheheehe!.....Journals are better safe for future memories while general posts are just like a random, lonely asteroid, wandering in deep cosmos, lost in time and space!)

Edit: And yeah, one more thing, if you're on Google+ add me, I'll add you back!   Need some dA people there too, to keep myself more connected with art! I feel so disconnected from dA now!.. i don't know why?!...I thought this was "THE" site for me,...and .. it is ..but ..umm....I don't, my mind keeps making me jump from one sit e  to another and so on and the cycle goes on!..anyways my heart will always belong here!..my brain is just lost! ..I hope this made sense, sounded different in my head!...LOl! XD
Here's my Account:  plus.google.com/10046397170540…

They say curiosity killed the cat;
I guess she was running too fast;
Fast within her mind on an endless track;
A track leading to nothing but questions;
Questions filled with deep emotions;
Emotions worth describing her existence;
Within vast universe of long distance;
Distance she traveled in her mind every night;
With eyes closed, mind in a strange fright;
Imagination starting from beginning till the end;
With questions leading to many a trend;
Why, how, where, and when?
If, or, I guess, and then?
Chain of thoughts never seemed to end;
But suddenly it all disappeared like a smoke-cloud blend!
She felt existential crisis then;
It was very hazy and sudden;
Leaving herself and her senses numb!
Now, she thinks nothing but dumb;
She knows not how to fix her tragedy!
I guess she needs help from a higher deity;
Now she is living her life like a reckless being;
That's her story, at least for this time being!

Faces with no expressions,
Living in their own depressions;
As people are trying to reach,
A place where they'll never be!
Hidden sorrows within their hearts,
The ones that will never be ungarbed!
Screaming within their tiny heads,
Shouting as they try to undead
A hope to find light in the dark,
A refuge within the hell's heart!
Hell's heart I must clear,
Is a place where we live, my dear!
As I try to tear my fear
I fall deeper into the ditch I once dug
A ditch of ever lasting mysteries unknown
Mysteries that might not unravel on their own
Perhaps they are the fruits of the seeds once sown,
Within my head it's all fully grown
It's branches begin to strangle my nerves
A parasite for me it serves
As i start to panic the fear suddenly vanish,
And then I start to question what and why?
I get lost in galaxies beyond the skies!
A cosmos full of mysteries
As I think within
my infinitesimally small boundaries!
Coming back to the shallow world of mine
I again see faces with fake smiles
Perhaps mocking at the gravity
of their own ignorant lives!
Moving their heads together
Like asteroids in outer space
Not knowing where to go
Not knowing where to be
Just wandering within their tiny worlds
With moments of foolish ecstasy
Running in circles
Having no beginning or extremity
For me,I see robots,
Unknown of their capabilities
And then I see you and me!
Were you and me destined to be
Trapped in a prison
Missing out infinite possibilities
Possibilities I may define
Are the things they consider divine
And to separate them,they draw a line
Questioning,inquisitivity and curiosity
Are these what they call, our tiny crimes?
Then at my bad luck,I start to moan!
Questioning the providence
As it was never shown
Questioning the providence
if it is there
Which left me no love
But all despair
Was this written for us
in the giant book of destinies?
Out of infinite miraculous possibilities
Are these our so called realities?
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